life at random

like, where have you been?

2009-11-06T03:02:00.000-08:00

hello blog.
i cant really say ive missed you,
cos i really havent.
im at tanjon pagar now.
alone.
waiting for some friends to come.
lucky for me, i decided to bring my laptop along.
erm,
im not gonna dull the mood here with lovey dovey
lovedrunk posts...
no more, no more.
im just gonna take a moment to talk about life.
the past 6months has been nothing but change for me.
some are really great an easy to deal with.
like getting my new ass laptop.
buuuuut, there are some changes that are harder to deal
with than the rest.
erm,
i lost one of mine closest friend to ns.
no more late night chats about everything under the sun for me.
erm,
more recently, rp guys are no longer polite champios
thats a bummer.

hmmmm...
i guess in life,
the only constant is change.
but, im a firm believer of light
at the end of the tunnel.
and at the end of each day,
there will be some kind of comfort to
take pleasure...

this is where i say goodbye i guess...
cheers=)

i still like you very much...

2009-07-19T14:31:00.000-07:00

no matter what i say,
no matter what i do,
i still lose my way,
when i think of you.
you make me laugh.
you make me smile.
and when i see your face.
i could run a mile.
ill never say it.
but each time its true.
I've never met anyone,
cooler to me than you.
you're not the average beauty queen.
or that girl on a magazine.
but it dont matter to me,
cos ive liked you since eighteen.
maybe im just dumb.
maybe i need a clue.
but crazy or not i am,
all i can think of is you.

i hope youre reading this.
i hope you know who you are
=S
PT later at 8.
ciao...

saving grace...

2009-06-15T10:50:00.000-07:00

hello world...
i havent really been blogging allot.
i wont say i dont care.
everytime i want to do so,
i would be pre occupied by something that needs to be done first.
by the time im free, id be too tired and cant be bothered.

anyways, the holidays have come and gone.
and im serious about this,
im gonna try to reach school early for the rest of the year.
i predict, it will do good for my grades by the time i leave this unforgiving school.
anyways, im getting quite pissed of with the school fining me.
i just dont get it how sooo many people are getting fined yet im the only one who
has to pay on the spot.
im gonna come out with it.
i broke the freaking glass at school.
yes, i did something that was on sooo many people's mind.
breaking a glass panel, something i believe was bound to happen
some time or another.
i cant believe how big of a fuss the school is making this into.
cutting my LEO access.
sending letters to my home to make payment.
seriously, i feel the world has no regard for the problem of others.
i know i did something wrong.
i wont run away from it.
why do you have to treat me like some running criminal?
!@!@#!#$***!@!*#@*$@#!!!!
like i said, pissed off. SERIOUSLY.

'I wish you would step back
From that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in '

long week...

2009-05-17T07:38:00.000-07:00

it seriously has been a long week for me.
school has been great.
the grades are good.
not been too late for classes
yea..not too bad for school...

but ive been having this feeling that
just lingers around for some reason.
i mean...
i really like this girl...
like, id just smile looking at her...
id frown when she walks aways...
im just naturally happy around her
for some reason...
but its kinda stupid for me cos,
i dont really talk to her much.
i dont really see her much.
and i dont really know her much
for who she is...
so why am i even thinking too much about this girl?
call it a crush...
call it a bad crush...

floorball hasnt been great either...
im currently playing in the first division
of singapore floorball with my new team.
im quite proud ive been able to reach far in my
short time playing.
ive been marking out my play with apperances
as a defender for so long since last season.
but there were occasions ive been made
to push up as a forward.
for the past week,
occasionally became permanent as
my coach prefered me as forwards rather
than a defender.
i dont know...
ive been having doubts this about this season.
its one thing being effective.
but its another being good.
yesterday during my game,
effective wasnt good enough.
i was rested and made to see my friends win the game for me.
sounds familliar?
well, i dont like the familiarity.
maybe, just maybe,
this wasnt made for me...

giggs, 11

2009-04-22T11:14:00.000-07:00

yessa...
my first ever.
and its sooooooo beautiful...

'glory! glory man united!'

1-4

2009-03-14T14:09:00.001-07:00

its okay...
we'll pick ourselves up again...
and after today,
all i can say is, losing is made harder
with the fact that your opponents
take joy in the fact that you lost.
hah, and they say im the cocky devil...

shave-d

2009-02-25T10:41:00.001-08:00

fuuuug...
i soooooo regret wanting the van-persie haircut...
now im left wit a army boy haircut...
how stupid can the barber get?
i guess thats what you get for 8dollars per haircut...
ERGH!!!!!

now my face looks extra chubby...
my clothes dont match as well...
i look like a convict/'special guy'...
and it cant run my fingers through my hair...
=(

just adorable

2009-02-20T10:46:00.000-08:00

i have too many words in my mind,
i dont know how to put them together...
with sentence structure out the window,
and volcabulary out the drain,
whats left of my sanity leads me to think,
your beauty aint a normal thing.
looking away as i see you,
trying hard not to blush.
deeply disappointed,
that such a moment never lasts.
as the moments from the watch passes,
and tall tress grow above green grasses,
you still stay so lovable,
cos everything about you is just soo adorable.
=)

its about time...

2009-01-31T12:21:00.000-08:00

yes... after all problem after all the trainings after last year's disappointment weve finally done it.. ivp champions baby... yess yess a treble div2, pol-ite, ivp... its been a good year so far thank god im satisfied with things so far =)

1500

2009-01-22T17:27:00.000-08:00

yeah...sooo...
its out...
and what what a sum...
shit!

new year...same year...

2009-01-01T08:43:00.000-08:00

its officially 2009...
i would know as i brought it in
desperately chasing the fireworks
in my dad's car...
trying to send out my well wishes
to my friends...
but seriously, i feel like
the year is still the same...
the year has not ended yet
and that somehow there is
much more time left in the year...
i think its because of being in a polytechnic...
with no year end exams or semester long break...
i feel like 2008 is still well and alive...
if thats the way it is,
i wanna end my 2008 big!!!
ivp...
division 1...
yeah...
that would be big enough...
for starters atleast...

vietnam buto or spore buto?

2008-12-21T12:05:00.000-08:00

by the 90th minute, thousands of fans
were pouring out of the gates...

pak cik,'singapore will buy torres, ronaldo and drogba.
habes you all. precious berat bontot lah!'

matrep(s),'vietnam buto! vietnam buto! vietnam buto!'

__________________________________________

okay, so that was just some highlights from the
aff cup semi final tie with spore against vietnam.
spore lost, deservingly seing as to how
they couldnt find the back of the net.

im seriously quite disappointed.
i think spore din not play as well as
they could.
but oh well...

what really highlights the match
was the reaction of the spore supporters
firstly, im sure many people
would be thinking they waisted their money.
second, i was quite disgusted at how many
spore supporters chanted 'vietnam buto! vietnam buto! '
and tried to get a piece of the vietnam fans
cmon lah ppl!
sore losers and you guys din even play!
best part was, you guys jeered louder
than you cheered for the home team!!
shame on you guys...

but, overall, there was some light out of it...
shahril ishak started and played most of the match...
i can tell why he got the number 17 jersey...
really a guy to look out for
and pest part...
hes born in spore!!!

HOW ABOUT THAT FOR LOCAL TALENT!!!

truth is, i just wanted to see you

2008-12-10T22:45:00.000-08:00

all i really want from you is to feel me
as the feeling inside keeps building
and i will find a way to you if it kills me
if it kills me...
=)

i dont believe in fairy tales. but i want to believe in you.

2008-12-08T10:11:00.000-08:00

we'll, ive finally turned 19
my last 'teen' year before i reach
the big two-zero.
hmmm, i guess its been the same.
nothing much has changed.
i mean, nothing much is soupose to change.
erm, yeah.
family was been quite cool.
gave me a mini celebration.
friends.
thanks for those who
did remember, even if u only knew
through the facebook alerts.
erm...
yeah...

so, ivp is coming.
i dunno.
im not thinking ill get to play much
even if i get to play.
but, i guess its about the results
at the end of the day.
oh well.
ill make do with whatever i have
like always.
hmmm,
at im not making myself look desperate.
yeah.
training is kinda hard.
not cos its been stepped up a level.
but cos we need to run more
since not many people are coming.
i realise i need better thights.
my nike-pro ones are not really helping allot.
maybe its time to get the 'SKINS' like
everyone is having.
or maybe just a smaller size for the
'nike-pro's will do the trick.

erm,
BTT is on friday...
better start studiying...
my dad's car is just there waiting for me
to drive it...
haha

kk, thats all.
peace world
=)

i still have to wake up in the morning...

2008-11-20T16:56:00.000-08:00

well,
ive been very busy for the past month.
as some of you may know,
my dad was admitted into the hospital
a month back.
yesterday, he was finally discharged
after like a month in nuh, including 3weeks
in the ICU.
so, it was quite a heart warming sight
to see him at home.
no more needle or tube being
pinned into his body.
no more drug induced sleep.
yeah.
finally he's at home.

well, glad thats over.
but, like they say, the end is just the beginning.
there's like soooo...
life.
like typically dramatic without a reason.
but yeah,
i still have to wake up every morning.

i guess,
there's really allot of things in my mind.
like, wordplay up and down, left and right,
all over my little mind.

crush

2008-11-13T09:15:00.000-08:00

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we could be
Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But i know this crush ain't going away
Going away

nsync-ed

2008-11-09T09:47:00.000-08:00

guess what...
its gonna be me...

be my bubble girl...

2008-10-28T11:44:00.000-07:00

yeap...
pol-ite is over...
rp is champion of the tournament
not toooooo overjoyed...
but quite cool to have a shiny
new GOLD medal added to my
not too impressive collection...

anywayz...
rp students are having a 1 week break...
kind of redundant for me as ive got
my time packed to the brim...
with pp and outings...
its gonna be one fast week...

yesterday would be quite
a memorial day in the future...
finally found time to
drag myself down to the SSDC
and sign myself up for a
BTT test dat...
yuuuuuuuuurp!!!
im on my way to get my license...
porbably still a long way..
but im quite positive i can do it.

'ouh and yes, you can
always be my bubble girl...'

so negative...

2008-10-13T09:33:00.000-07:00

i dont really know why.
but for the whole of today, i just felt
very negative.
nothing could make the difference.
nothing?
well...
beyond the point,
i just felt damn down.
i could not smile much
cos i jus couldnt see the
rationale behind it.
i was kinda gloomy.
kinda sad.
kinda irritated
kinda mad.

well,
it just sucks to be soo down.
the fact the ure feeling negative
already undelines its not gonna be fun.
but, oh well.

p.s. so fine. ouh soo fine.

steps to glory...

2008-10-09T18:04:00.000-07:00

yessa...
div 2 is finally over...
and guess what?
champions again kappa?
haha...
2 seasons straight...
not too shabby aye?
considering i was aiming
for mid table at the start...
good job guys...
good job...

yurp...
champions baby...
div 1 next season...

so...
thats that...
pol-ite season is on now...
started in wednesday...
played against nyp...
got off to a winning start
with a 5-2 scoreline...
next match is today against sp...
COME ON!!!

still in love...

2008-09-21T13:26:00.001-07:00

love...
for some time ive pondered...
do i still?
just about hours ago,
ive concluded i still am.
im still in love.
with football that is...
soccer.
bolasepak.
足球
fútbol
calcio
futebol
whatever you call it, i still
love it unconditionally.
im saying this because, i was thinking to myself
about a week back.
i was reading a match report on ESPNsoccernet
regarding the MANu vs liverpool match.
for those of you who were living under a rock
for the past month, MANu lost.
i was feeling very lost.
part of me wants to feel sad knowing my favourite
football club had just lost to their
fiercest rivals.
part of me just couldnt be bothered since
football just seemed soooo yesterday.
so, i was left pondering.
until last night.

it was called the clash of the titans.
MANU vs chelsea.
i was watching from one of the tables
at the familiar coffeeshop near my house.
and it was then i got my answer.
my hard raced everytime lampard took a corner.
i sighed everytime ferdinand cleared the ball.
i grew furious at how helpless van der sar is becoming
at corner kicks.
yet he became my hero when he saved a shot from joe cole.
it was like i fell in love when ronaldo came on.
but a break up when kalou scored the equaliser.
though the match ended a draw, i was quite happy.
football is not just a game.
it is the game.
floorball aside ofcourse.
within 90 minutes, i went through an emotional
roler coaster enough to last a lifetime.
and now i understand why im soo in love with it.
just like alex ferguson once said,
'football, bloddy hell.'

anywayz...
heres some floorball updates...
my team is 2nd in the league with one match left.
a convincing win next weekend
will put us in pole position for promotion
to division one next year.
in other news, pol-ite
is in 2 weeks time.
hmmm...

nites yo...
:)

nike run-ed

2008-09-07T10:13:00.000-07:00

well, this is kinda late
but, yah...
i ran the nike human race...

yup...
im quite proud with my timing...
not too bad for the guy
who was from taf-club
:X

polite is coming...
maybe this time?
well see..

Why this way?

2008-09-03T10:03:00.000-07:00

I cant help it.
Anytime.
Anywhere.
it kinda swirls in my mind allot.
making its effect felt everytime it comes around.
A mixture of estacy and pain,
served like a chilled emotional cocktail.
All i really want. . .
:s

Blogging from my phone. . .

2008-08-27T10:49:00.000-07:00

As you might have guessed it from reading my title, i typing this entry from my handphone. Dont ask me why. Im just bored and i cant sleep (its 2 in the morning by the way).

okay, you can say im being emo or whatever, but i find it hard to be to upbeat nowadays. Sure there are times i break into a smile. But, i just feel so incomplete these days. And being alone or being swarmed with friends doesnt help me to much. Hmm. . .i wonder. . .

thats it for my first phone post. Nites. . .

moment like this...

2008-08-26T09:16:00.000-07:00

well, first thing i can tell you is,
my moments nowadays arent as good as
kelly clarkson's.
i dont feel like ive won the american idol.
i dont feel like im singing infront
of a sold out crowd.
i dont feel like im a million bucks.
i just feel damn low nowadays.
floorball wise, i dunno...
its either im losing form,
or im just not good enough.
had a bad game during the weekend.
and a worst training last night.
i dunno.
maybe...
just maybe...

and nowadays,
it sucks to receive an sms.
like, its always the same old people...
floorball guys, family.
no one special ever drops a 'hello' msg.
like, im always hoping its something nice
to read when i get the message.
but it always ends up being, 'coming training'
or something like that.

ahhh...
that it...
im going to sleep...
gd night...

sunday morning rain is pouring...

2008-08-17T10:28:00.000-07:00

the holidays are here...
spent the first 3 days in camp...
it was okay...
not tooo shaaabby aye...

erm...
the weekends are over...
its monday morning now...
went for skools training on saturday morning
before going out with my parents in the evening...

as you might know
or guessed by reading the post title,
it was raining allot on sunday morning...
this really affected my plans for the day...
luckily the rain was not bad enough for me to call
my plans off...
u see,
the last time i went cycling to east coast,
i realised that there was a route that
linked east coast to many of the
parks in the eastern area of singapore.
the route would go as such:
ECP -> Changi Beach -> Pasir Ris Park -> Tampines park -> Bedok Resivoir -> ECP
so today,
i decided to cycle down the route
and explore all it had to offer.
for my first time,
i have to say i did quite
well finding my way through.
some of the connecting routes
were not soo easy to find
but i was able to manage.
the sights were very interesting at times.
once, i was afraid i was lost.
and suddenly i was
the old Changi Hospital building.
i kinda freaked out a little
cos i imagined myself in a
'blair witch project' situation...
haha...
but it was all okay...
unfortunately, i din think about taking pictures
until the route was reaching its end.

so, there goes another week.
olympics is at its best lately.
micheal phelps made history by being becoming
the best olympian when he won his 8th medal for the games.
and singapore won silver on the table tennis group events!
come on team singapore!!!
haha...

mkay...
my whole body is aching from all the cycling...
so, gdnight :)

current addiction...

2008-08-11T09:14:00.000-07:00

just a list of things i found myself
caught up with recently...

*dance music

*counter strike

*carrom

*E1 chicken rice

and...

**you. still.

:S

ah, la peaceful melody...

2008-08-06T09:28:00.000-07:00

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours...

my whole world could be in a wreck,
but you're brief presence brings calm and serenity.
=)

to you...

2008-07-29T00:24:00.000-07:00

do notice im gone?
where did run to?
so far away...
i want you to know that
i miss you, i miss you sooo...

im still kinda sad.
the feeling comes and goes.
it just lingers in my mind.
hmph...

sad-ed...

2008-07-24T09:37:00.000-07:00

well...
its about 1 in the morning...
i cant sleep...
hmmm...
have you ever felt
way deep inside ur body,
in that body part that doesnt exists,
something is missing?
you cant really put a finger on it
cos in real life,
its not really there...
well
yah, im kinda feeling that way right now...
i just fell like today,
something is just missing.
something just doesnt feel right.
something just feels unaccomplished...

i feel so down right about now.
been so since i was in school earlier.
im just,
really,
badly,
unfortunately,
sad.
its not emo.
its not 'attention seeking'.
its not 'typical'.
im just sad.
yes, sad. sad. sad. sad. sad!
there is no possible other way of putting it.
plain. simple.
sad.
period.
=(

procrastinator...

2008-07-15T00:02:00.000-07:00

hello there...
well...
probably reading the title would have
hinted that ive been putting off this post
for some time...
its not that i dont have the time...
i just, dont want to do it...

hmmm...
another thing ive been procrstinating so far
is my PP report...
i distinctively remember telling myself
i was gonna get started on sunday night...
its tuesday now and im still not even close
to starting...
oh well...

anyway...
life has been sort of happenning for me...
been attending soooo many outings and such...
soo...
here goes...

two weeks back, me and
some of the floorball went out to have dinner
at sakura.
sort of a farewell dinner for the mates
who were going to serve the nation...

after the dinner,
we went out and sat around outside
ngee ann city plaza...
well...
thanks to fit and his new Iphone,
we got ourselves carried away
in a more extreme game of
truth or dare...
erm...
pictures and vidoes, too explicit i guess...
haha...

the next day,
had my first league game.
we won.
1-0.
i felt i had a good game.
and it feel soo much
different winning
when you played a role in getting the win.
picture for the day?

haha...
pardon his smile.
he on cloud nine for reason apperant in his hands...
literally.

last firday,
my sister finally graduated from university.
no more mugging for her.
BIG UPS TO YOU SIS!
well,
i guess its something to be happy and proud about...
maybe something to aim for?
again...
here are some photos...

zomg!!!
check out the baby!!!
haha...
sooooooooo cute!!!

so,
finally.
had my second league game on sunday.
we won 5-3.
hmmm...
not too happy overall.
i think i should have been better.
hmmm...
photo of the day?

haha...
cool or what???

well...
thats long enough...
bbye...

*kau buat aku tersenyum*

fried rice on cloud nine...

2008-06-29T19:00:00.000-07:00

well, was watching the euro08 final this morning
Spain won.
but anywayz...you can read more about the match at
www.espnsoccernet.com
sooo...
since i was already up so late into the night...
i decided to cook myself something to bring to school today...
explaining the unexplainable dish in the picture...
well, to say the least, it fried rice...
yurp...
rice fried with different ingredients...
i think i cam out quite well...
compared to my tasteless past attempts,
this one was kinda satisfying...
considering i am no chef wan,
im quite proud of myself...
haha...

things may change, but you could be the only constant i need...

wassup wit that?

2008-06-26T10:28:00.000-07:00

'so that's the line up for today.
wan, you will be resting for this week...'

last year, every Sunday, for about
three months, those were the words
that beat my ear drums ever so loudly.
after which, the fact that i would play
no part for my team during the game would
slowly yet surely sink in.

not good enough?
not fast enough?
not strong enough?
not big enough?

the same cold feeling went through me last night.
with set dripping from my face onto the
artificial turf i was standing on,
i realized i was being left aside.
left to finish my remaining 2 rounds.
left to lead the cooling down execises.
left to watch from the outside
left to ponder...
as in my mind, the words sank in again...
'wan, you'll be resting...'

and the game goes on...

2008-06-12T09:48:00.000-07:00

its been god knows how long since i
last posted...
i wish i had a chip in my brain that
uploads all my thoughts online...
would be dandy aye?
haha...
imagine how embarrassing it would be,
having people read about my bedtime dreams
and all about the girls i think about...
haha...

anywayz...
life has been great...
erm...
aloooooooooooooooot of things happened since i last posted...
so,
im not gonna go into tooo many details...

well,
the floorball league is gonna be
starting soon.
and, as rumoured for some time,
im the captain for the team.
abit mixed on feelings i should say.
obviously i am proud that people
see me fit to lead a team.
but, am i what they are looking for?
David beckham was a captain.
and he scored the equalising goal against greece,
when england were 2-1 down, and sent
england to the 2002 world cup.
mike eruzione was the captain of the
1980 usa ice hockey team.
he scored the winning goal against the more
favoured soviet union team in the olympics
semi-finals.
USA later went on to win the gold medal
seriously, i dont know how or why
i was defined to be a captain.
but, the game goes on no matter what.
and hopefully, ill step up
when my defining moment comes.
*fingers crossed*

soooo...
thats all i guess...
selamat
:)

things that make me better...

2008-05-11T10:43:00.000-07:00

days havent really gone the best for me...
been having some 'emo' nights for some reason
floorball got banned...
soo...
not much trainings...
but im still darn busy for some reason...
its 2 in the morning...
i have school tomorrow...
yet im still awake...
sooo,
like ive said...
there are times when i feel off
and that's when its nice
to have a sweet relief...
thus...

things that make me better

-scoring a goal
-MAN U scoring a goal
-winning
-MAN u winning
-playing floorball
-playing football
-having a nice meal
-getting an 'A' for class
-spending good times with my family
-playing with with my cousins baby nephew
-FIFA 08
-music
-a good sleep
-relaxing with my friends
-getting money
-good weather
-my room
-getting new stuff
-finishing my work
-losing weight

and...

-...

(hint:its soupose to be A she. but im not sure which one?)

the hate list

2008-04-23T19:51:00.000-07:00

its the third week of school...
its thursday and theres training after school...
i feel upbeat today...
probably cos i finally got to play
soccer yesterday after training...
its was sooo totally kewl!!!
haha...

anywayz...
i think life is seriouly getting harder...
i find people getting on my nerves
more and more nowadays...
its sort of a worrying trend cos
more and more i find myself
cursing the worst for people...
more and more do i find deadly thoughts
filling up my innocent little mind...
okay...
maybe its not soo innocent after all...
so...
due to this new trend of 'hating on impulse',
ive sort of created and imaginary list of names
which includes all the names
of the people i hate at that point of time...
and belive me,
the list can get kinda long at times...
but,
being the ever forgiving person i am
with a simple smile or hand shake,
i take certain names off the list...
sooo...
at the end of the day,
only a few names are left on the list...
now...
this few peopl are the ones...
erm...
i wanna 'talk' to...

what a first week...

2008-04-13T17:41:00.000-07:00

so, i was actually gonna post this last firday night...
but...
the magic of the matress was just toooooo strong...
tooooo strong...
anywayz...
its monday morning and im in school...
like duh...
got about 2-3 hours of sleep last night...
way not enough...
the first week of school was wokay i guess...
there wasnt any major happenings...
met new people...
got into new classes...
typical first day...
ouh...
AND IM LIKE A YEAR 2 STUDENT NOW!!! haha...
i think its just thooo cool...
just like upper secondary or upper primary back in the days...
haha!!!

ouh shit...
im probably gonna die because of this...
but oh well...
last friday, me, yusoff and hazmi went to to queensway so the the mamat can get some new pair of shoes...
before leaving for the train, the mamat changed into his new nike shoes...
but, as we were walking, the mamat decided he looked wrong wearing the shoes and decided to switch back to sandals in the middle of the walking pavement, somewhere near the shell that is opposite of the road from ikea!!! haha amekkao!!

hahaha...
sooo, thats about it for the past week...
the weekends we kinda dull...
spent time with the family...
its called family love...
haha...
ouh! ouh! and i finally got a new backpack
baek kappa!!!
kk...
till next time...

back to school...

2008-04-05T13:11:00.000-07:00

hello sportfans...
been sooooooo long since my
last emotional post...
how im feeling now?
lets just say things
havent changed too much for the good...

anywayz...
havent really got the mood to blog...
havent really got the time...
havent really got the stories...
serious, my life nowadays is
about as interesting as a
malaysian 'liga perdana' match
(fyi, liga perdana = premiere league)
i mean, everyday is almost the same thing
over and over again...

soo,
the holidays are just about over...
school is starting tmr...
and guess what?
so does floorball training...
i know...
whats new right?
like i said,
same thing, over and over again...

soo,
*things done during the holidays?
ive put on alot of weight...
seriously, i tummy wobbles when i walk...
*i worked part time with my dad...
i seriously feel i got to know
my dad better through out the whole time working...
*got hooked on to 'scrubs'
haha...
so, sooo funny...

theres probaly many other things i did,
but not many actually made a meaningful
significance in my life...

soo,
new school term in RP
means new classmates...
lucky for me, i have been able to get to know
some of my new classmates through the
freshmen orientation programme
held last thursday and friday...
ive got too say,
ive made quite a few new friends...
and the experience i had being a student leader
is just priceless...

well, anywayz...
i gonna go try get some sleep now...
soo...
goodbye sportfans...

she was the is. she is the was.

2008-03-06T09:32:00.000-08:00

she was the is.
innocent like white paper.
now ugly like a used wrapper.

she is the was.
then i never knew.
now fixed on what has grew.

two girls.
two way different worlds.

yet both ever soo connected
in a mans mind swirl.

you gonna fuck me real hard kappa?!

2008-02-19T09:27:00.000-08:00

Time passes by like sweet poetry,
with life slipping by ever so quickly.
Without realizing, we grow and grow.
Till the day comes,
when threes no where else to go.
Some people die,
with total disappointment.
While other pass,
with much satisfaction.
But being young is beautiful,
for time is plentiful.
And it is still up to you,
to make life wonderful.

so, i was going through my old stuff
a week back, and i found some
of my old poetry material.
came across this piece and i thought
of sharing it.

well,
had training just now,
so, i think i did pretty decent.
not good, but decent.
obviously, i made a few bad moves.
but thats the whole point of practicing isnt it?
to improve on the wrongs and work towards
the rights.
well, anywayz
after training, this 'guy'
came up to me and said,
"wan, you better wake up.dont make me fuck you real hard."
i was laughing when i heard this,
but politely enough, i covered my mouth with my tshirt.
well, heres some rough details about the guy:
visibally out of shape(can fit two heads in his tummy)
graduate from rp, so he's been playing fb longer than me.
and he thinks he the al-mighty on court...
well..
okay..
now ill get back to the comment he passed on to me.
disregarding the homosexual nature of the comment...
i feel that maybe what he said may be true...
i do need to improve my game...
but oh my gawd...
couldnt it be placed in a more polite and friendly term?
atleast without the vaulgarities damnit!!!
and like, he wasnt to great to say the least...

so, thats past...
hmmm...
i was chatting with fitri online...
we were kinda discussing about another guy...
rough details:
rp student
living in the north side of singapore.
well, we were kinda discussing about
how much of a asshole he is...
im not gonna go in details on what he
did to me or fitri.
but ill just say that you guys wouldnt be
to happy with it.

hmm...
i guess...
in life,
how you see people
is largely based on
their characther and actions...
and when things
dont really shape up for the best...
all you gotta do is move along...

well...
thats long enough...
nights...

my heart...

2008-02-13T12:11:00.000-08:00

'i am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone'

so, its about 4 in the morning.
its 'valentines day' today...
hmmmm...
a lonely valentine it is
for me i guess...
its kinda funny what
i feel nowadays...
like...
i think im over things...
but i cant help
but feel i have lost something
really really BIG...
like...
OOOOOMYGAWD!!!
im probably talking nonsense now...
i cant really type out how i feel
or what im feeling...
or can i?
oh well...

anywayz...
enuf emo-ing....
heres something new...
came across this new band
PARAMORE is the name...
pop/punk/alternative music...
as good as it gets i can say...
but most importantly...
their lead singer
is like damn hawt!!!
like for-shizzle...

Birth Name:Hayley Nichole Williams
Nickname:Spongebob, Sponge, Hayles
Age:19
Birthday:December 27, 1988
Birth Sign:Capricorn
Height:5'2EyesGreen
Hometown:Franklin, Tennessee
Birth Place:Meridian, Mississippi

haha...
i think im sooooo
in love...
judging by physical things
like,
the way she looks and all...
i would say she sums up my dream girl...
simple hair...
tshirt and a pair of jeans...
and sneakers...
like...
simple yet ouh so beautiful...
hmmmm...
where are you mrs.hazwan
hahaha...
mamposss...
okay...
thats all...
gd night...
time to dream about Hayley Nichole Williams...
haha

angkat! angkat! angkat!

2008-01-30T09:03:00.000-08:00

mkay...
its official...
i DO NOT like my class...
i mean...
not everyone in it...
just most of them...
i think they are like
the best in the ancient art of
'Angkat'...
yes yes...
just to get a pathetic A...
they are willing to do anything
to make the faci feel better about
themselves...
thoooo sad...
nyehahaha...
u guys can just go along and carry on
with ur acts of 'angkat'...
(p.s. not everyone in my class sucks, some of them are cool too...)
____________________________________________________

hmmm...
training has been on the low lately...
so im pretty much free most times...
so what do we do when we are free?
haha...
go on a counter strike frenzy of course...
kinda 'primary school'ish lah...
but, oh well...
nyehaha...

anywayz...
went cycling just now...
its really great
to be living in the middle of singapore...
u can practically get anywhere within one hour
BAEK AH NOVENA!!!
haha...
well...
i managed to squeeze in some
cycling time
just now...
wanted to cycle to esplenade
but the path was cut off due to construction work on
the Ferris wheel...
oh well...
next time maybe...

here are some pictures i took...

cool huh?
here a picture of the
under construction Ferris wheel

the lights on that thing
will just light up the night sky i tell you...
well that about it...
2 more days of school
before i can say goodbye to
my class...
yeah balls!!!
angkat! angkat! angkat!
haha...
gonna go to sleep now...

goodnight guys :)

my oh my...

2008-01-25T10:20:00.000-08:00

Wake up will you?
Just wake the fuck up...
When will you
get it through your
fucking head huh?
Do you need someone to die
before you finally
learn your lesson?
Does something damn horrible
have to happen to you
before you finally mend your ways?
Like...wake up will you?
How much more can your life take
before it finally goes down the
drain totally?
How much more can your friends
lie to you just to make you feel better?
Wait...wait...
How much more can u fucking lie to
yourself just to make yourself feel
better?
Yes...
If you have not yet guessed it,
YOU my DEAREST FRIEND,
have been living a lie...
Yup...
It’s all a fucking lie...
So do yourself a favor...
Ask yourself these questions...
Not your friends...
Not your family...
Not that soft toy by the side of your bed...
But only ask yourself...
Because you know what?
At the end of the day,
YOU are the one
facing the music...

_________________________________________________

sorry for the excessive use of vulgarities...
i just need to get it off my chest...
been holding it back for to darn long
i guess...
TOOOOO LONG!!!

slapshots to the face...

2008-01-20T09:50:00.000-08:00

hmmm...
ivp is over...
like finally...
so RP guys got into
the finals...
only losing out to nyp...
hmmm...
all i can say is...
hmmm...
what can i say??
i din even play...
okay...
anywayz...
i hope this pushes me and the rest of my
team mates to train harder and
become better contenders for next year...
come on guys!!!

so,
i probably wont be too busy anymore...
but dont expect myself to be tooo free...
just got my bike fixed...
so im kinda looking forward to alot of
cycling...

"and i even wonder if we
should be getting under these sheets.
were empty..."

with you? with who?

2008-01-08T22:37:00.000-08:00

Oh Girl!
I don't want nobody else,
Without you, there's no one left then,
You're like Jordans on Saturday,
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now,
Hey! little shawty,
Say..you care for me,
You know..I care for you,
You know...that I'll be true,
You know..that i won't lie,
You know..that i would try,
To be your everything..yeah..

hmmm...
stubled upon this song about a week ago...
and eversince, ive been hearing it about everywhere i go...
not that i dont like it...
its chris brown and its a great song(p.s. im a huge chris brown fan)
hmmmmmmmmmm...
i feel that the words in this song held a much
deeper meaning then but not now...
but anywayz...
im okay with things now...
its abit of a roller coaster ride at times...
but im getting along...

_________________________________________

here's a story bout little Timmy.
a boy who loves to eat candy.
white or brown, short or tall,
it didn't matter to Timmy cos he ate them all.

Timmy's mom would feed his addiction.
every bite filled him with such affection.
everyday Timmy's mom would say,
'be good Timmy, and ill buy you candy today'.

but some days were not to good for Timmy,
he would see his mom, hands all empty.
all Timmy could do was to sigh.
and sometimes, the disappointment would make him cry.

everyday Timmy's mum would promise,
to get him candy when she got back from the office.
but some time Timmy seems to know,
at the end of the day, the candy wouldn't show.

so now Timmy isn't so gullible.
never believing that sweet treat is fully possible.
but the problem now is, what would Timmy do
if the promises made were actually true

___________________________________________

trust me,
metaphorically
i am alot like Timmy...

me, my girlfreind and my scandal...

2008-01-05T11:34:00.000-08:00

hello everyone...
meet my girl friend

her name is Petom Saloma bte Pendek
but i always call her 'psp'
we've known each other for about a year...
she has shiny fair skin
and she just likes it sooo much when i push her buttons...
she may look dull...
but the things she shows me at times
bring me on a hell of a ride...

but, i have somthing i have to confess...
for about a few months,
i have been seeing someone behind her back...

her name is FATimah bte PIPEt
but i always call her 'fatpipe'
she's very tall and sexy
and her delicate feet allows her to
handle balls very well...

u see, certain commitments i have forces me
to spend time with 'fatpipe'
but my lovely 'psp' is always the one with
me through the times...
oh lord...
what should i do???

______________________________________________________

haha...
sry...
im just bored...

'i live alot better when im out of tune'

bbye 2007...hello 2008...

2007-12-31T00:36:00.000-08:00

its new year's eve babe...
in a few more hours
its going to be the year 2007
wheao...
how fast time flies...
anywayz...
probably gonna be heading out
to marina for fireworks later...

hmmm...
2007...
an eventful year to say the least...
here are some things im sure to remember
down the road...

1)passing my o levels and getting into rp.
kinda normal for everyone but its actually
a big thing for me considering how attached i
was getting to bhss.
i still miss that hill top school till today...
but...
we just have to move on...
in im like, getting used to life in rp.

2)getting into floorball.
yup yup...
how can i not mention about
the topic that takes up most of
the time i have.
ill remember everything from
my first air-hook
to my first goal.
haha...

3)turning 18.
probably not remembered by how i spent it...
but i guess ill remember it due to its significance
of me becoming a so called young adult?
haha...
not to say i din enjoy the day...
it was one of the best birthdays ive had
in a long time...

4)my first-est EVER girlfriend.
yes farah, my first ever.
yupyup...
after all my past heartbreaks...
haha...
like they always say,
the first is always special...
and indeed it has been...
ill stop here abt this.
cos i might just talk abt the same thing
over and over again.
because it all ouhsooo great...

hmm...
whatelse?
ahw damn...
2007 has been a good year overall..
hope for 2008?

well...
i hope that ill live for another year to start with
haha...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE...

jealousy is a bitch...

2007-12-29T10:41:00.001-08:00

its about 2 in the morning right now...
music for the soul it was for me last night...
haha...
headed down to victoria concert hall to catch
farah performing with her school alumni band...
the music was great...
been some time since i last went to a
band concert...
well...
after the concert...
went to have dinner with derek,trina,eugene,sarah and gary...
just a normal night out it seems...
but in truth...
damn...
if only i can describe how i feel right now...

had a long and fruitful chat
wit a friend of mine just now...
well, farah was the honourable friend...
haha...
though i may disturb her alot...
she seriously is great to talk to...
got to talk about alot of things ive
been thinking about...
anyways pisang...
if you are reading this...
thanks again...
and u did great at the concert im sure...

hmm...
random thought...

jealousy is a bitch...
experienced it first hand...
comments - 'rabak babe'

i need to redefine my friends nowadays...
friends who care and friends who dont give a shit...
comments - looks and words are deceiving indeed...

hmmm...

ouh...
ivp is really right around the corner...
hopefully this time i make the cut...
maybe it could justify to a certain extent
all that has happened to me thus far recently...

okay...
thats all for now...
seecha...

Hope u know i miss you so.Ouh, but its okay...

2007-12-19T07:36:00.000-08:00

the fairytale has ended...
and sad to say...
it wasnt a happy ending...

he was pushing it, to breaking point it seems.
she was faking it, holding together all the broken seams.

_________________________________

a million different feelings,
and i dun even understand one...
or am i just hungry?
hmmm

im tired!!! GET ME MY MEE SOTO!!!

2007-11-27T17:44:00.000-08:00

ouhkay...
been some time since i last posted...
hmm...
days have been quite dull
and the same for me...
with school and training on
every weekday...

so...
the effects of daily training?
total fatigue...
fyi, i had training yesterday
and my whole body is aching...
best part is...
there is still training today
after school...
i keep wondering if this all this
training im having is actually healthy
for my body or not...

worst part is,
i can never get enough sleep.
i just cant got o sleep when i want to...
and its just very frutrating...
my parents have to scream every morning
to get me out of my bed...
and i still half asleep while im
having my morning shower...
and most times im in school...
all i wanna do is sleep!!!

anywayz...
something random now...
had a very weird dream last night...
dreamt about things from my past...
first...
i dreamnt about my first home at
geylang bahru...
dun really understand that part...
secondly...
i dreamnt about eating mee soto
in the BHSS canteen...
haha...
really miss those times...
good food for cheap prices...
maybe its time to got visit that old place
and get me some of that historical
bowl of noodle...
haha...

CHEERS...

when reality sets in...

2007-11-06T09:24:00.000-08:00

i love you very much too arini...
i know im not perfect...
and to someone as beatiful as you...
i probably never will be...
but im willing to work thing out...
just so you will be with me...
holding your hands in mine,
id pray we'll have more time.
hugging you like i would,
id wish you'll forever be mine.
i miss you...

cute is what we aim for...

2007-10-23T09:20:00.000-07:00

mkay...
soo, im not emo'ed out
any longer...
im actually kinda happy today...
mkay, latest happenings...
the fasting month is over and its the
hari raya month...
woo hoo...
cash rolling in like wheels on the high way...
haha...

havent really been visiting alot since i only
go out on weekends...
visited the usual unties and uncles...
but thats about it...
got the chance to go visiting with my
poly friends on last sunday...
it was...fun i should say...
never was a dull moment...

mkay...
now...
poly-ite season has come and is almost over...
the last game will be played tmr...
rp will be going against np
and a draw is enough to secure them
the poly-ite floorball champions trophy...
hmm...
im kinda not involved in the team...
stuck doing some match admin work during the game...
but looking at my seniors play
is like such an eye opener...
the intensity and pace is
just soo much greater than DIV 3...
hope to be able to compete to them soon...

well...
thats pretty much it for now...

'im still in disbelief, that such a beauty
is willing to be with me'*23/10/07*

emo'ed out...

2007-10-10T20:32:00.000-07:00

im almost at tears
thinking about the consequences
of my actions.
the 'what if's and 'if only's
keep swirling in my head.
i cant think straight.
i just cant seem to catch a break.
agony.
pain.
stupidity.
insane.
few words that swim about
in the juices in my brain.

new shoes...

2007-10-08T00:37:00.000-07:00

its monday today...
hari raya is just up ahead...
this saturday!!!
time really flies
its now the fourth week of school
only 12 weeks more before...
SHL!!!
haha...

well...
my whole family have been busy with the
preperations for hari raya...
so, yesterday, i had to like
wipe the windows...
what a waste of talent...
haha...
anyways...
last night...
by parents brought me out for some shopping...
bought a shirt,
a pair of jeans,
but...
what im sooo happy about is
finally getting my new shoes...

ouh...
i can just look at it the whole day...
haha...
i had to like go to
soo many shops at queensway
jus to get the
right size and colour...
haha...

"if only it was just you and me"

one day, you and i will be free...

2007-10-05T14:03:00.000-07:00

All the words in the world
Could not express how I felt.
The instant high you sent me on was like
Riding on a rollercoaster without safety belts.
I laughed when you spoke,
I smiled when you silenced.
All the while knowing that my heart
Was beating with such violence.
Tomorrow is never promised,
Yesterday has passed us by.
But I just want us to be together,
And forget all the goodbyes.

dear_______,
i am very happy we feel the same way.
p.s. i like you...

i like you like a fat boy likes chocolate...

2007-10-01T08:56:00.000-07:00

after three months.
after nine games.
after all the sweat.
after all the ups and downs.
we, have finally done it.
it was always spoked off
amongst us,
but now,
it is for real.
on fake gold lay our reward.
words as bright as the night stars.
CHAMPIONS! CHAMPIONS!

haha...
if it has not hit you yet,
rp spartans are champions of div3
haha...
so its div2 for us next season...

DIV3 CHAMPIONS: RP SPARTANS
__________________________________

dear _________,
i like you like a fat boy likes chocolate.
i like you like a lion likes meat.
i like you like a nerd likes 'A's.
i like you like a glutton likes meatballs.
i like you like a shopper likes discounts.
i like you like a fish likes water.
i like you like a baby like milk.
i like...
can go on and on...
but all i really want to say is...
I LIKE YOU!!!

this may sound romantic or jus stupid.
but jus look at the most repeated words and
you will understand...
:)

mmmkay...

2007-09-23T10:56:00.000-07:00

ok...
its now 1:57am monday morning...
and i cant sleep...
probably because i woke up late
yesterday...

well...
a few quick updates...
floorball div 3 is finally over...
RP Spartans are CHAMPIONS!!!
we beat tyreso blue titans 3-2
in the semi finals
and in the finals on saturday,
we drew with el-derado 6-6
but went on to win the game on penalty
shoot outs...
our goalie elyas was really the man of the moment...
cool and calm through out the penalties...
well...
i din really get to play a major part
through out the league...
well...
looking forward to prove myself worthy
for a more active role in the team
when we play in division 2 next season...

oooh...
last week was the first week of school...
met my new classmates for the first time...
they are, friendly to say the least...
im not really fond of any of them currently...
the whole class is like way way competitive...
its kinda stressful cos now,
i really have to work damn hard to get my good
grades...
slip up...
wham!!!
Cs and Ds babe...
well, i guess thats PBL for you...

okok...
i seriously need to go sleep...
got class tmr...
and training after school...
damn...
other poly student are still
having holidays...
shitloads!!!

im still alive...

2007-09-15T00:22:00.000-07:00

hello
today is the third day of the fasting month.
so, ive gotta hold back on the swearing i guess.

mkay,
past 2 weeks been okay,
last week was pretty much typical.
floorball training and all...
and there was that floorball event
at pasir ris last weekend(pesta sukan mens open).
the playing ground sucked,
everyone was sliding around on their shoes as
there wasnt really any grip to rely on.
the results din really favour us to say the least.
but it was a good learning experience having played
with more experienced opponents.

then from last monday,
up till like wednesday night.
there was the 'long awaited' floorball camp.
hmmm...
it wasnt as tough as the first one.
i guess after some time,
u kinda get use to the physical demands of the
training and shit...
but it was fun nonetheless...

the div3 semi finals are on tmr...
rp Spartans vs tyreso blue titans...
hmm...
much anticipated match on our side...

anywayz...
thats all for now...

life can be a whore...its jus how u look at it...

2007-09-01T12:54:00.000-07:00

hello there...
time for my weekly
update on my life...
its about 4 in the morning right now...
cant sleep...
DONT know why...
its the first week of holidays...
erm...
quite restricted on my plans cos of floorball...
hmmm
but managed to squeeze in some 'me time' during the week...

on wednesday, i skipped physical to go out
with my ex-classmates...
met up with them at vivo...
then made our way down to the esplanade area...
jus hung around...
joked...
laughed...
it was much fun...

then on friday...
went back to school to meet up with old teachers and friends
as it was teacher's day...
bhss has really changed...
the students there are really getting very typical and attention seeking...
but anywayz...
mrs raj(my english teacher)
said i lost alot of
weight and looked very different...
haha...
didnt really get to watch
the performances...
anywayz...
i felt damn sad leaving the school...
i actually wanted to see someone
there...
as in, really wanted to see...
but i guess it wasnt meant to be...
anywayz...
made a house visit miss lim's house(my form teacher for 5 years).
she was pregnant thus she couldnt go to sch...
it was fun visiting her hse.
got to chill and have fun with
some of my old classmate.
she treated us to pizza!!!
and best part...
i got a free motorcycle ride there and back from my good friend lee hua.

yesterday was the quater-finals of div3 floorball...
the game came down to penalties as it was
tie at 3-3 after 3 periods...
we won the penalties thanks to our trusted keeper
eylias...
YEAH BALLS!!!
pesta sukan will be on next week...
and the semis the week after...

thats all for now...
nites...

its time we say goodbye...

2007-08-25T10:01:00.000-07:00

last thursday was officially
the last day of the semester.
im saying this because some people
had their own self declared last days.
so yah...
my 16 weeks with my classmates
from w14g are officially over...
24 people...
mere strangers when we first met...
but each one left an impression on me...
some good, some bad.
but still, an impression...
ive seen this done on
some other blogs that belonged to
my classmates...
so im gonna give it a try...

*the A-Zs of w14g*

adeline-
without doubt, the oldest one in class. has her mind set on doing well in school. a very good eating kaki. but a very heavy smoker. i am very sure you will do very very well for the rest of your time at rp.

arfa-
matrep! haha! one of the few people in class i became close to. very very funny guy once you get to know him. always fun to be around him. not your typical malay guy i have to say. surely someone i hope to see next semester.

arini-
wheao!!! haha. okok, for azy's sake im gonna come out and say it, yes i did have a crush on arini. mampos!!! haha. erm, arini wasnt very easy to get close to. maybe she was abit too quiet during the first few weeks. but anywayz, shes' a very nice girl. with the looks to beat. a real movie junkie. hope to see you next sem!!!

azy-
OMG!!! haha. probably the source of most noise that comes from the class. very very lively person. fun to be around with when she is happy. but be careful as to not step on her tail. she really does have a short fuse at times. but overall, a great classmate and a dear friend. hey, maybe we'll be in the same class next year? haha...SHL!!!

belle-
what can i say...shes hot! but taken...hope things work out well for you in sch and with ur new 'boytoy'...hahahahaha

ben-
the clubber, the drunkard, the beng, the smoker...hmmm...did i miss out anth? i guess thats about it huh? well...a lively figure in class...hope things go well for you during the rest of your time in rp

cecilia-
hmmm. looks really are decieving. looking younger than she really is. she really does pack a punch at times. gd luck to ya...

cheng cheng-
mr jackie chan. you probably wont be reading this. but anywayz, a great mind if not for the language barrier.

derek-
mr SA. the original casanova(dont pretend, i know u get more chicks at SA, hahahah). probably the most laid back guy in class. never the attention seeker. but always fun to be with. the only guy in class to drive a benz. whao whao whao! im sure to see you around next sem!!! probably jus to ask "hows life?"...hahaha...

eugene-
WHO WAN GO MAKAN?
WAT SIA?
MAMPOS?
mr pimp...hmmm...irritating at times...but never a wet blanket i soupose...fun to be with at most times...

farah-
omg...what can i say, the best scribe in the world. a very good sport, never the spoiler. though it seems i enjoy disturbing her at times...wait...i do enjoy disturbing her...but anywayz...she never takes jokes to seriously and that the good thing about her...will be missed...especially when i need to come up with a PDT...hehe

gary-
mr DB...will always remember him for his coloured hair...a fellow manU fan...and a fellow psp owner...always fun to be with... and a good eating kaki...see ya at food haven!!!

geraldine-
erm...
a really hard working student...
never really hang out much with you
but ur probably fun to be with...
hope things are great for you
for the rest of ur time in rp...

iswan-
the first of my classmates i met...
never thought we would be friends...
but end up...
haha...
be sure to see you at the sports hall
maybe someday
ull have that 'abg body' look
uve been wanting...
haha

khai-
someone im sure not to miss for the rest of my days in rp...
haha...
so u better come for trainings!!!
anywayz...
uve been great...
food haven??
hahah

leon-
mr red head.
haha...my source of free music...
hope things go well with you and your princess...
oh and gd luck for the rest of RP

mich-
SAS!!!
haha...
fun to disturb...
see ya around!!!
SAS!!!

pris-
erm...
jus like times when she walks in class...
speechless...
hope things go well for you next sem...

sarah-
nth much lah...
haha...
seemingly clueless at times...
never fails to crack into laughter...
LUCK!!!

trina-
very very smart girl...
wouldnt be able to survive certain lessons
without your help...
thank you!!!

vanessa-
hope theres no hard feelings
gd luck...

wendy-
erm...
stay cheerful always...
see ya!!!

yong sheng-
seriously, you should get yourself off ur ass and get some excercise...
haha...jkjk...
see a around...
pokemon master sheng!!!

zq-
erm.......

now...
to the facilitators...

kong ming-
thxs for the As
but try to be less gay?
maybe that way,
u can find better things to say!!!
crap...

danny-
the most up front faci ive had...
u rock!!!
keep it real and all about the money!!!

sheila-
BITCH!!!
math was already a whore
before u made it a tranny...
eeeeewwwwwwwwwww....
disgusting

suhaila-
next best thing to a mum in sch...
a friend in a faci...
priceless...

irwan-
are you sure?
conform?
haha,
thanks for the Bs

emo sunday: the sequal

2007-08-19T09:17:00.000-07:00

okok...
today wasnt really an emo sunday...
jus a little bit shack...
there was no floorball today...
were taking a 2 week break...
the games will resume in 2 weeks time...

but there was floorball yesterday...
me and some of the year ones
headed down to simei ite
for a few floorball games
with some schools
it was not a serious thing
so we had quite a make shift team
cos not everyone decided to come...
we got some very good results
and got valuable experience from the games...

anywayz...
back to today...
went to play soccer wit
bry and kiff..
since there wasnt many of us...
we decided to jus pass the ball around...
den suddenly,
this malay guy came along...
started to play wit us for awhile...
bryant then left to take a crap
at his house...
so it was left with me keith and the
old matrep.
suddenly...
keiths kick the ball out of the court...
the guy went out
and started to walk away...
he said he was going to the shop and rode
off on his bike...
and guess what...
he rode off with keith and bryants phone...
WTF!!!
i was lucky enough not
to put my belongings in the same bag as theirs...
if i had done so,
my fon and psp would have gone 'bye bye'...
anywayz...
we made called the police
got our statements down and
headed home...

i slept wen i got home...
i guess its the effects of
sleeping late last night...

so anywayz...
went to eat dinner with my parents
after i got up...
so now...
here some shit for me...
manU lost to ManCity...
wtf!!!
haiz...
dunch wanna talk about it...

emo sunday

2007-08-12T10:25:00.000-07:00

damn...
VHAT A DAY IT VAS TODAY
feeling god darb emo
right about now...
nothing much went my way today...
other than staying alive and
eating my fair share,
the day was much screwed up for me...

first there was the floorball game...
got rested ny coach for like
the second time this season...
getting sick of being benched i tell ya...
best part, i dont know what im doing wrong...
ahhhhhh!!!
i really feel the pain of all those
sportsmen out there who
just cant catch their lucky break....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

then...
there that thing that happened at causeway...
hmmm...
rather leave it unsaid
and move on...

well,
pretty much eveything was
down for me today...
and...
i was really looking forward to see my
idolised red devils play today...

to tell u the truth...
the played very well...
im very proud with how they played...
unfortunately...
they did not really have a senior striker
rooney sterted the game and almost scored
but was subbed by nani after halftime...
they drew with reading at full time...

but i guess,
the devils can onli get better with
the way they are playing now...
and they did not lose...
so thats a pluss point...

so yah...
not the best ending to my emo sunday...
so...
LORD!!
HELP ME!!!

ahahaahaha

2007-08-05T18:31:00.000-07:00

erm...
quick update on the floorball league...

*
welcome to espnFloorballnet
the rp spartans have made it through
to the quater finals after 2 straight wins
against EV Eagles last week with
the score of 15-3
and against ntu blizzards with a
score of 3-1
the spartans remaining group match
will be against millennia institute
next week.
that is all for this edition of espnfloorballnet
*

anywayz...
i realised that nowadays...
my phone is very quiet...
more quiet than usual...
then i started to think...
what happened to all those
people who kept my
phone busy a few months back?
hmmm...
seriously...
really really miss the past...
come people...
call me!!

...

2007-07-28T11:17:00.000-07:00

mkay...
firstly...
floorball league update...
we played nighthawks lasy week...
i din play...
so ive really got not much inputs...
erm...
it was a very though game...
we came back from being behind
to fight for a 5-5 draw...

erm...
nth much to update u guys about...
school has been the same...
training as usual...
there was no court training this week...
the were contruting the rockwall...
THANKS AH ER!!!
as if we din need the training...
it was all physical this week...
run, run, running...
hmmm...
i think i need to work on
my sprints...
damn...
if onli my life had a manager mode.
*imagine*

mkay...

hmmm...

thats all??

okay...
OOOOOOOOOOO YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH...
DOH!!!
the simpsons movie is out...
haha...
i sooooooooooo need to watch this one...
haha...

ok...
have a match tmr...
so...
i guess id better sleep...

****** / ****

'im begging you to be my escape'

rants...

2007-07-16T08:33:00.000-07:00

ok...
before i go on,
i jus want to correct my mistake from my last post.
the score from the match was 11-3.
impressive huh? i know...
haha...

ok,anywayz,
had our second match yesterday.
against serangoon gardens.
we won (we had to...pride was at stake...hehe)
the score...a comprehensive 10-2...
and...
I SCORED...
hehe...

again...
i did not get a starting place...
only started to play during the second half...
was partnered up front with guhen...
he was the one who assisted my goal.
passed me the ball at the blind spot and i hit the ball
in with a back hand shot...
YEAH BALLS...
anywayz...
celebrated by pointing my index finger upwards(like KAKA')
apparently some ppl tot that was funny...
one of my seniors called me 'solskjaer'
the super sub
cos i scored when i get subbed in...
hehe...
coolness...

anywayz...
sch...
nth much?
understood lah...
byez...

its time to move on...

2007-07-08T08:24:00.000-07:00

today was the first day of
div 3 floorball...
we got off to a great start...
we beat ping yi sec 10-3...
i wasnt in the starting line up...
was only used as a last minute sub...
but sure as hell
i made my presence felt...
scored the last goal of the day...
yeah balls...
scoring debut for me!!!
hope this will
get me a regular spot on the team...
_________________________________________

i guess it was not meant to be,
the things that went on between you and me.
though it seemed our friendship was hard,
truth was we were miles apart.
maybe it is better this way,
we wont need to hide what we want to say.
goodbye and goodnight my friend,
its time to part as the ride comes to an end...

booyah

2007-07-04T00:34:00.001-07:00

hey yooooooooo....
now listen to what i say ooooooooooooooo...

havent bloged since my last emo post...
my days have mostly been abt school and floorball
and guess what...
ive made it..
yes...
into the team balls...

yup...
thats my jersey right there...
league games are gonna start this sunday...
so...
wish me luck...

nth much happened lately...
but last saturday...
i was part of history...
haha...
me, along wit my fans, anf 45000 other
people who packed the national
stadium for the final time...
we were first treated to a friendly match
between the spore legends and the malaysia legends...
it ended 1-1...
i tell u balls...
those old spore guys can still play very well...
quah kim song, dollah kassim, sundramuti
Sean Tan's dad,Eddie tan, also got a peice of the action...
then came the main event...
spore vs australia
mkay...
the match ended 3-0...
but seriously...
i was very proud of our lions...
it took the socceroos 50 mins to break our
defence for their first goal...
even the aussie coach admitted that the
lions did very well in the
first half to break the aussie defence...
amd the fact that spore lost many players due
to injury made the scoreline easier
to swallow...
well...
thats my opinion anywayz...
after the match...
they brought up the past triumphs
that happen in the stadium...
on of them being indra sahdan's goal
during the 2005 tiger cup...
haha...
Indra is seriously my hero sia...
anywayz...
here are some pictures me and my friends took after
the event...

haha...
thats all for now...
gonna go watch transformers...
hehe
tatas...

damn u...

2007-06-11T07:19:00.000-07:00

how cruel can life get?
im in a midst of a crisis
yet i still have to face rejection

today i found out i wont be included in the
floorball division3 team...
shack balls...
after all that long training hours...
sweat and pain...
i din make it...
yeah sure...
theres always next year...
but what about now?
im soupose to go for training
and be happy for my friends
who made it and act as if im
happy?
i mean...
yeah...
congrats to those who made it...
but i jus feel damn shack rite now...
balls...
_______________________________________
Ku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya
Yang kini hadir di antara kita
Namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu
Yang slama ini temani hidupku

Maafkan aku…Menduakan cintamu
Berat rasa hatiku..Tinggalkan dirinya
Dan demi waktu..Yang bergulir di sampingmu
Maafkanlah diriku..Sepenuh hatimu
Seandainya bila..Ku bisa memilih

Kalau saja waktu itu Ku tak jumpa dirinya
Mungkin semua takkan seperti ini
Dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku
Membawa aku dalam kehancuran

dammit...

2007-06-06T09:22:00.000-07:00

its the same old feeling...
taking its toll on me
just at a different time...

what was back then,
still is now...

i just dont get it...

how is it that,
something that is never mine,
always leaves me wanting more...

how is it that,
something that causes me so much pain,
can bring me to such highs...

how is it that,
everytime i leave,
i end up coming back again...

danm it!

i hate myself for
having to go through this...
over and over again...

yet i just love
to force all the
thoughts into my mind...

argh...
i need help...
an intervention...
a cure...
more time...

or maybe...

just maybe...

all i really need...

is what ive been talking about all along...

------------------------------------------------

gonna be having
floorball camp till friday...
so...
yah...
till friday i guess...

first holidays...

2007-06-04T09:41:00.000-07:00

what hurts the most,
is being soo close,
and have soo much to say...

hmmm...
as u can probably tell...
kinda 'emo' right now...
nothing drastic...
jus very very confused and lost...
*figure it out urself*

anywayz...
on a high note...
finally got to watch
pirates of the caribbean...
watched it alone...
thks to ppl i know who cant
bother to watch it together...
felt like 1 of those lonely
uncles who go to the movies alone
to...
erm...
god knows what they are doing
in the cinema by themselves...
haha...

anywayz...
the movie was great...
didnt know singapore was once
occupied by chinese pirates...
and chow yun fat!!!
hahaha...
imagine if they stuck wit
our country coming from
malay beginnings...
haha...
they would probably have to hire
Suhaimi yusof or Najip Ali
to be the asian captain...
hahaha...
anywayz...
keira knightly was hot...
regardless of what ppl
think of her boobs...
she is HOT!!!
haha...
and the way she dresses
in the movie might
just end up being
some guys fetish...
haha...
*dun get any ideas...its not me*
anywayz...
the whole POTC always have the
habit of leaving some scence
for after the credits...
so there i was...
after the movie ended...
waiting for the credits to roll...
as i held in my pee...
and it was worth it...
haha...
got to see keira knightly one more time...
haha...coolness...

hmm...
got to see the movie today
as its the start of my break...
2 weeks...
no school...
but sadly...
there is still floorball
training...
and its usual time which is in the evenings...
so yeah...
kinda doomed to staying at home on weekdays...

balls...

2007-05-27T06:04:00.000-07:00

hey balls...
im talking to this mad girl
named nona...
she keeps shouting every few seconds...
haha...

u guys shud know who
she is...
so wun drag...

anywayz...
damn bored now..
bloggin jus to pass time...

had scr this morning...
kinda cool lah...
got to meet up wit
sean,arif,kiff...
the old guys lah basically...
fun!!!
anywayz...
mad love wit the court
floors today...
bryant's late tackle on me sent me
tripping and made me fly...
first time sia...
felt like DIDIER DROGBA when hes diving...
jus that mine was real...
haha...
yeah balls...

anywayz...
spent the rest of the day at home..
so i dun really have much to say..
byes...

poly life...

2007-05-23T09:15:00.000-07:00

lessons in sch today sucked...
real bad...
not only was the module boring
(math and computing)
the facilitator could not
speak proper english...
i had to think real hard
before understanding what she had to say...

but it was cool after school...
(hey that rhymed! haha...lame...)
had floorball pratice...
performed ok i guess...
but it was good enough for my seniors
to notice and select me to go for
seniors training...
but im not gonna...yet...
gonna go for 1 final year 1 training on
friday before starting with seniors
training next week...

its champions league finals day...
yup...
AC Milan Vs Liverpool...
cant wait ball...
not gonna be sleeping today...
haha..

anywayz...
heres one turn off for the day...
during class...
i somehow brain washed
some of my class guys to play scr tmr
with a team from another class...
den dunno how...
the other team's 'captain'
tot we very arrogant and
made the game personnal...
wtf...
anywayz...
im pumped...
gonna slot into my teams
defence and make it hard for
the other team as much
as possible...
im not very confident
cos were a new team...
but ill give it as much as i can...
haha...
goona go wit the 'win win, lose lose'
mentality and not care about
the outcome...
lets ust say those guys from the
other class are not facing
the 5N1 boys...
sean would probably blow their defence wide open...
arif would 'ole' their asses off...
kiff wud jus irritate them...haha...
lee hua will be solid between the post...
bry will be taking up the striking duties...
hanafie will play with math by is side...
and me...in the centre of it all...
haha...

if i could...

2007-05-17T20:07:00.000-07:00

havent been blogging...
no mood...
always to tired to blog by
the time i reach home...

anywayz...
im looking for a new blogskin...
smth simple and neutral...

sch is starting to become stressfull...
and best part...
its not because of the studies...

haha
blog more later...
maybe...

random

2007-05-08T18:13:00.000-07:00

yeah balls!!!
manU are champs...
in your face chelsea...
that goes to show money
cant buy u the best talent...

in sch now...
as usual...
damn bored...
body aching like hell...
yet still have training later...
blah...
hope i make it into the school team...

random

2007-05-03T20:44:00.000-07:00

argh...
damn tired now...
whole body aching...
feels just like secondary sch...
only differance being
im not wearing a school uniform...

had floorball training yesterday...
it was soupose to be a physical training
so we had to run,do sit ups and push ups...
feels like ncc sia...

sch is the same
cold and boring...
hah...

'i am jealous of her cos
she gets to touch herself everyday'

school...

2007-04-29T17:48:00.000-07:00

in sch now...
very very bored...
my eyes almost went shut
on the mrt...
late nights are really
taking its toll on me...
i can barely stay awake on the long mrt
rides from novena to woodlands...
and to think i still have like 3 years left...
and its still 16weeks before the first break...
damn damn damn...
had a big stomach ache this morning...
probably yesterday nights's fishball noodle...
wat a 'great' way to start the day...
body aching badly now...
probably because of soccer yesterday...

talking about soccer...
ManU are well on the way
to lifting the premiership trophy...
a win over everton at everton for the devils
and a draw for chelsea at home to bolton
has given fergie at his boys a 5 point
lead on the table
with onli 3 games to go...
good luck guys!!!

floorbalL!

2007-04-25T07:33:00.000-07:00

erm ok...
im still on a high right now...
damn...
today was my first ever floorball
session...
damn it was fun...
jus think about it...
ure playing floorball at 1 side
and there a beautiful girl playing
netball at the other...
haha...
u do da math...

bored...

2007-04-19T17:24:00.000-07:00

damn...
havent blog'ed for like a week...
really no time to...
i finish school at 4...
reach home at 6(1730 if lucky)
and by that time...
im always to beat and tired...
and like wat the fuck lah...
every single day i need to
do a 'reflective journal' for school...
damn it man...

anywayz...
really miss bhss alot...
miss playing scr during recess after
eating a bowl of mee soto in the canteen...
haha...
if u guys are reading this...
we should really meet up
some time...

as for sch...
as normal...
always feeling sleepy in school...
hahaha...

in sch

2007-04-15T19:22:00.001-07:00

in sch now...
damn bored...

seriously
i think my facilitator is homo...
and da lesson
is bullshit lah...
wtf are we
learning abt some
stupid sport for??
dum sial...

SHL! SHL! SHL!

2007-04-14T12:15:00.000-07:00

SHL! SHL! SHL!
da most common thing
i heard throughout da orientation
damn it was crazy...

i seriously think
ive found my true
calling...
studiying sports
wit a bunch
of loud and
crazy ppl...
along wit tons
and tons
of hot girls...

hehe...
ok...
da orientations was cool...
da first may
was a little dull
it was class orientation
met my classmates for da semester
made some friends...

den da second day...
met up wit
ppl who were in da
same scool as me...
school of Sports,Health and Leisure(SHL)
dey were great sia...
and it helped alot
dat da seniors showed
us da ropes...
on how to be
extremely noisy and disturbing
to da other ppl...
haha...
SHL!!!

on da third day...
there was alot of slacking going on...
so i took
da chance to teach
my team mates da game
'black magic'
haha...
dey kinda got irritated...
anyways...
da sch field become
a party ground at nite...
we had a jam and hop to
end da orientation...
fun sial!!!

haha...
miss it man...
especially a certian sumone...
hint-its not a groupmate...
haha...

anywayz...
theres gonna be a camp
coming up...
jus for shl students...
cant wait!

poly is kinda cool...

2007-04-12T09:02:00.000-07:00

erm...
ok...
poly is kinda cool...
not gonna get
into too much details cos i need
to go to da toilet and crap...

so ya...
basically...
its nice...
tell u guys more tmr
after my orientation
ends...
da onli thing dat sucks is
probably going to woodlands and
back...
haha...
pride of da north mah!
haha...
nites...

just a few more days...

2007-04-08T10:12:00.000-07:00

its been a looong weekend...
because of good friday,
da whole of singapore could enjoy
a nice 3-day-long
weekend...

on friday...
me and my whole family headed-down to
ecp for nice family picnic...
wasnt really very fun...
there was seriously nothing to do there...
probably da highlight of da whole
day was riding on one of those
2 seater bikes wit my cousin...
thsts an understate ment of
how dull it was overall...

den on saturday...
went out shopping wit karl...
was soupose to get a bag
and a pair of new shoes for poly...
but ended up just getting a bag...
finally...
my years of wait have ended...

got myself a crumpler school bag...

den finally on sunday...
went to play soccer
wit my friends...
seriously getting very unfit sial!!
couldnt run alot after 1 hour...
maybe its got smth to do wit
how hot da day was...
haha...
but soccer was fun...
other that dat time
wen fhadli tried
to break my leg bone wit
his kick...
damn U fhadli!!!
haha...
after scr we headed to
novena where we had lunch
at 'fork and spoon'...
im seriously getiing
addicted to the
'fried fish soup' there...
after walking around da shopping
centre for some time
we headed home...

yup...
dats all for da weekends...
gotta hit da sacks now...
need to got to sch tmr
to get my laptop fixed...
damn...
and ive onli got like
2 days left sch starts...
damn...

The real battle lies within

2007-04-04T09:43:00.000-07:00

Din post for da past 2 days
stupid problems cropped up...

anyways...
updates for da past
2 days...
*im rejecting da offer for da saf scholarship...
*gonna be getting a pair of Vans slip on shoes for poly
*prolly gonna be getting a pair of straight cut jeans
*and also a few t-shirt...

hmmm...
ok...now to today's post...
hmm...

i went running at tpy stadium today...
was aiming to have a go at a 2.4km run...
it was gonna take 6 rounds
around da track...
and so...
as soon as i placed
my stuff inside on of da lockers...
i got on with it...

round 1,
hmm...doing fine...

round 2,
starting get warm...

round 3,
ok...really sweating now...
and da fact dat it was a cold nite
kinda made it abit painful on da joints...

round 4,
ok...
damn it...
its looking like dat theiry henry nike commercial...
my body is saying no...
but my mind was saying go...

round 5,
and den da fight started...
my stomach started to hurt...
even my mind was telling me to pull da brakes...

round 6,
finally...
i really had to get my mind off running
just to make it past da finish point...
thanks to tha HOT GALS who were running at dat time...

ok...
now...
to think of it...
dont we go through da same
things every single day?

were set on doing something...
but end up not doing so
cos we were to weak and submissive
to what our minds told us...

hmmm...
i guest dats why da worlds
full of crack addicts...
haha...

dats all folks...

up,down,left,right...

2007-04-01T10:20:00.000-07:00

hehe...
busy day today...
slept alot...
haha...

anywayz...
was kinda beat after
my BBQ wit my friends yesterday...
haha...
damn fun...
but it was a long day...

it all began at abt 4pm...
i left my hse carrying my cooler
and a container
full of bee hoon...
walk to da main road
thinking i would get a taxi...
after waiting for like 20mins...
i walked to lee hua's hse...
where we were able to get
a taxi in like 5 mins...
damn taxi drivers!!!

after picking up keiths and bry...
we headed to the
food wholesale center
to pick up da satay...
before finally heading to east coast...

wen we reach there...
da taxi dropped us off
at da wrong car park...
we had to carry everything we had
to da bbq pit...
and da best part was...
we were sent walking da wrong way
thxs to da signboards...
by da time we found out...
we were like 2 km from our pit...
thanks NPB!!!

but i was all smooth
after dat...
everyone had a great time...
i suspect that there must have been
drugs in da charcoal
cos everone was damn high after
da bbq started...

it begins all over again...

2007-03-30T11:20:00.000-07:00

hey...
i know ive probably said this like
too many times...
but yah...
im back...
hopefully this time
i get to blog more often...

well...
its abt time for a new chpt to begin
ive deleted all my new post
and looking forward to new ones...
im abt to start my first year in poly...
got me a slick laptop
(da reason why ill be able to blog easily)
got me a new sch
(republic poly)
no new flings at the current moment...
and not too many new fren either...

still a manchester united fan
and still in love wit da game...
still hopeless in romance...
and still as chubby as ever...
(im probably getting fat to...)

well...
dats all for now...
hopefully this will be
the first of many great posts
ahead...