nike run-ed

well, this is kinda late
but, yah...
i ran the nike human race...


yup...
im quite proud with my timing...
not too bad for the guy
who was from taf-club
:X

polite is coming...
maybe this time?
well see..

Why this way?

I cant help it.
Anytime.
Anywhere.
it kinda swirls in my mind allot.
making its effect felt everytime it comes around.
A mixture of estacy and pain,
served like a chilled emotional cocktail.
All i really want. . .
:s

Blogging from my phone. . .

As you might have guessed it from reading my title, i typing this entry from my handphone. Dont ask me why. Im just bored and i cant sleep (its 2 in the morning by the way).

okay, you can say im being emo or whatever, but i find it hard to be to upbeat nowadays. Sure there are times i break into a smile. But, i just feel so incomplete these days. And being alone or being swarmed with friends doesnt help me to much. Hmm. . .i wonder. . .

thats it for my first phone post. Nites. . .

moment like this...

well, first thing i can tell you is,
my moments nowadays arent as good as
kelly clarkson's.
i dont feel like ive won the american idol.
i dont feel like im singing infront
of a sold out crowd.
i dont feel like im a million bucks.
i just feel damn low nowadays.
floorball wise, i dunno...
its either im losing form,
or im just not good enough.
had a bad game during the weekend.
and a worst training last night.
i dunno.
maybe...
just maybe...

and nowadays,
it sucks to receive an sms.
like, its always the same old people...
floorball guys, family.
no one special ever drops a 'hello' msg.
like, im always hoping its something nice
to read when i get the message.
but it always ends up being, 'coming training'
or something like that.

ahhh...
that it...
im going to sleep...
gd night...

sunday morning rain is pouring...

the holidays are here...
spent the first 3 days in camp...
it was okay...
not tooo shaaabby aye...

erm...
the weekends are over...
its monday morning now...
went for skools training on saturday morning
before going out with my parents in the evening...

as you might know
or guessed by reading the post title,
it was raining allot on sunday morning...
this really affected my plans for the day...
luckily the rain was not bad enough for me to call
my plans off...
u see,
the last time i went cycling to east coast,
i realised that there was a route that
linked east coast to many of the
parks in the eastern area of singapore.
the route would go as such:
ECP -> Changi Beach -> Pasir Ris Park -> Tampines park -> Bedok Resivoir -> ECP
so today,
i decided to cycle down the route
and explore all it had to offer.
for my first time,
i have to say i did quite
well finding my way through.
some of the connecting routes
were not soo easy to find
but i was able to manage.
the sights were very interesting at times.
once, i was afraid i was lost.
and suddenly i was
the old Changi Hospital building.
i kinda freaked out a little
cos i imagined myself in a
'blair witch project' situation...
haha...
but it was all okay...
unfortunately, i din think about taking pictures
until the route was reaching its end.

so, there goes another week.
olympics is at its best lately.
micheal phelps made history by being becoming
the best olympian when he won his 8th medal for the games.
and singapore won silver on the table tennis group events!
come on team singapore!!!
haha...

mkay...
my whole body is aching from all the cycling...
so, gdnight :)

current addiction...

just a list of things i found myself
caught up with recently...

*dance music

*counter strike

*carrom

*E1 chicken rice

and...

**you. still.

:S

ah, la peaceful melody...

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours...








my whole world could be in a wreck,
but you're brief presence brings calm and serenity.
=)

to you...

do notice im gone?
where did run to?
so far away...
i want you to know that
i miss you, i miss you sooo...

im still kinda sad.
the feeling comes and goes.
it just lingers in my mind.
hmph...

sad-ed...

well...
its about 1 in the morning...
i cant sleep...
hmmm...
have you ever felt
way deep inside ur body,
in that body part that doesnt exists,
something is missing?
you cant really put a finger on it
cos in real life,
its not really there...
well
yah, im kinda feeling that way right now...
i just fell like today,
something is just missing.
something just doesnt feel right.
something just feels unaccomplished...

i feel so down right about now.
been so since i was in school earlier.
im just,
really,
badly,
unfortunately,
sad.
its not emo.
its not 'attention seeking'.
its not 'typical'.
im just sad.
yes, sad. sad. sad. sad. sad!
there is no possible other way of putting it.
plain. simple.
sad.
period.
=(

procrastinator...

hello there...
well...
probably reading the title would have
hinted that ive been putting off this post
for some time...
its not that i dont have the time...
i just, dont want to do it...

hmmm...
another thing ive been procrstinating so far
is my PP report...
i distinctively remember telling myself
i was gonna get started on sunday night...
its tuesday now and im still not even close
to starting...
oh well...

anyway...
life has been sort of happenning for me...
been attending soooo many outings and such...
soo...
here goes...

two weeks back, me and
some of the floorball went out to have dinner
at sakura.
sort of a farewell dinner for the mates
who were going to serve the nation...





after the dinner,
we went out and sat around outside
ngee ann city plaza...
well...
thanks to fit and his new Iphone,
we got ourselves carried away
in a more extreme game of
truth or dare...
erm...
pictures and vidoes, too explicit i guess...
haha...

the next day,
had my first league game.
we won.
1-0.
i felt i had a good game.
and it feel soo much
different winning
when you played a role in getting the win.
picture for the day?

haha...
pardon his smile.
he on cloud nine for reason apperant in his hands...
literally.

last firday,
my sister finally graduated from university.
no more mugging for her.
BIG UPS TO YOU SIS!
well,
i guess its something to be happy and proud about...
maybe something to aim for?
again...
here are some photos...







zomg!!!
check out the baby!!!
haha...
sooooooooo cute!!!

so,
finally.
had my second league game on sunday.
we won 5-3.
hmmm...
not too happy overall.
i think i should have been better.
hmmm...
photo of the day?

haha...
cool or what???



well...
thats long enough...
bbye...

*kau buat aku tersenyum*

fried rice on cloud nine...

well, was watching the euro08 final this morning
Spain won.
but anywayz...you can read more about the match at
www.espnsoccernet.com
sooo...
since i was already up so late into the night...
i decided to cook myself something to bring to school today...
explaining the unexplainable dish in the picture...
well, to say the least, it fried rice...
yurp...
rice fried with different ingredients...
i think i cam out quite well...
compared to my tasteless past attempts,
this one was kinda satisfying...
considering i am no chef wan,
im quite proud of myself...
haha...








things may change, but you could be the only constant i need...

wassup wit that?

'so that's the line up for today.
wan, you will be resting for this week...'

last year, every Sunday, for about
three months, those were the words
that beat my ear drums ever so loudly.
after which, the fact that i would play
no part for my team during the game would
slowly yet surely sink in.

not good enough?
not fast enough?
not strong enough?
not big enough?

the same cold feeling went through me last night.
with set dripping from my face onto the
artificial turf i was standing on,
i realized i was being left aside.
left to finish my remaining 2 rounds.
left to lead the cooling down execises.
left to watch from the outside
left to ponder...
as in my mind, the words sank in again...
'wan, you'll be resting...'

and the game goes on...

its been god knows how long since i
last posted...
i wish i had a chip in my brain that
uploads all my thoughts online...
would be dandy aye?
haha...
imagine how embarrassing it would be,
having people read about my bedtime dreams
and all about the girls i think about...
haha...

anywayz...
life has been great...
erm...
aloooooooooooooooot of things happened since i last posted...
so,
im not gonna go into tooo many details...

well,
the floorball league is gonna be
starting soon.
and, as rumoured for some time,
im the captain for the team.
abit mixed on feelings i should say.
obviously i am proud that people
see me fit to lead a team.
but, am i what they are looking for?
David beckham was a captain.
and he scored the equalising goal against greece,
when england were 2-1 down, and sent
england to the 2002 world cup.
mike eruzione was the captain of the
1980 usa ice hockey team.
he scored the winning goal against the more
favoured soviet union team in the olympics
semi-finals.
USA later went on to win the gold medal
seriously, i dont know how or why
i was defined to be a captain.
but, the game goes on no matter what.
and hopefully, ill step up
when my defining moment comes.
*fingers crossed*



soooo...
thats all i guess...
selamat
:)

things that make me better...

days havent really gone the best for me...
been having some 'emo' nights for some reason
floorball got banned...
soo...
not much trainings...
but im still darn busy for some reason...
its 2 in the morning...
i have school tomorrow...
yet im still awake...
sooo,
like ive said...
there are times when i feel off
and that's when its nice
to have a sweet relief...
thus...




things that make me better

-scoring a goal
-MAN U scoring a goal
-winning
-MAN u winning
-playing floorball
-playing football
-having a nice meal
-getting an 'A' for class
-spending good times with my family
-playing with with my cousins baby nephew
-FIFA 08
-music
-a good sleep
-relaxing with my friends
-getting money
-good weather
-my room
-getting new stuff
-finishing my work
-losing weight












and...














-...











(hint:its soupose to be A she. but im not sure which one?)

the hate list

its the third week of school...
its thursday and theres training after school...
i feel upbeat today...
probably cos i finally got to play
soccer yesterday after training...
its was sooo totally kewl!!!
haha...

anywayz...
i think life is seriouly getting harder...
i find people getting on my nerves
more and more nowadays...
its sort of a worrying trend cos
more and more i find myself
cursing the worst for people...
more and more do i find deadly thoughts
filling up my innocent little mind...
okay...
maybe its not soo innocent after all...
so...
due to this new trend of 'hating on impulse',
ive sort of created and imaginary list of names
which includes all the names
of the people i hate at that point of time...
and belive me,
the list can get kinda long at times...
but,
being the ever forgiving person i am
with a simple smile or hand shake,
i take certain names off the list...
sooo...
at the end of the day,
only a few names are left on the list...
now...
this few peopl are the ones...
erm...
i wanna 'talk' to...

what a first week...

so, i was actually gonna post this last firday night...
but...
the magic of the matress was just toooooo strong...
tooooo strong...
anywayz...
its monday morning and im in school...
like duh...
got about 2-3 hours of sleep last night...
way not enough...
the first week of school was wokay i guess...
there wasnt any major happenings...
met new people...
got into new classes...
typical first day...
ouh...
AND IM LIKE A YEAR 2 STUDENT NOW!!! haha...
i think its just thooo cool...
just like upper secondary or upper primary back in the days...
haha!!!

ouh shit...
im probably gonna die because of this...
but oh well...
last friday, me, yusoff and hazmi went to to queensway so the the mamat can get some new pair of shoes...
before leaving for the train, the mamat changed into his new nike shoes...
but, as we were walking, the mamat decided he looked wrong wearing the shoes and decided to switch back to sandals in the middle of the walking pavement, somewhere near the shell that is opposite of the road from ikea!!! haha amekkao!!


hahaha...
sooo, thats about it for the past week...
the weekends we kinda dull...
spent time with the family...
its called family love...
haha...
ouh! ouh! and i finally got a new backpack
baek kappa!!!
kk...
till next time...

back to school...

hello sportfans...
been sooooooo long since my
last emotional post...
how im feeling now?
lets just say things
havent changed too much for the good...

anywayz...
havent really got the mood to blog...
havent really got the time...
havent really got the stories...
serious, my life nowadays is
about as interesting as a
malaysian 'liga perdana' match
(fyi, liga perdana = premiere league)
i mean, everyday is almost the same thing
over and over again...

soo,
the holidays are just about over...
school is starting tmr...
and guess what?
so does floorball training...
i know...
whats new right?
like i said,
same thing, over and over again...

soo,
*things done during the holidays?
ive put on alot of weight...
seriously, i tummy wobbles when i walk...
*i worked part time with my dad...
i seriously feel i got to know
my dad better through out the whole time working...
*got hooked on to 'scrubs'
haha...
so, sooo funny...

theres probaly many other things i did,
but not many actually made a meaningful
significance in my life...

soo,
new school term in RP
means new classmates...
lucky for me, i have been able to get to know
some of my new classmates through the
freshmen orientation programme
held last thursday and friday...
ive got too say,
ive made quite a few new friends...
and the experience i had being a student leader
is just priceless...

well, anywayz...
i gonna go try get some sleep now...
soo...
goodbye sportfans...

she was the is. she is the was.

she was the is.
innocent like white paper.
now ugly like a used wrapper.

she is the was.
then i never knew.
now fixed on what has grew.

two girls.
two way different worlds.

yet both ever soo connected
in a mans mind swirl.

you gonna fuck me real hard kappa?!

Time passes by like sweet poetry,
with life slipping by ever so quickly.
Without realizing, we grow and grow.
Till the day comes,
when threes no where else to go.
Some people die,
with total disappointment.
While other pass,
with much satisfaction.
But being young is beautiful,
for time is plentiful.
And it is still up to you,
to make life wonderful.


so, i was going through my old stuff
a week back, and i found some
of my old poetry material.
came across this piece and i thought
of sharing it.

well,
had training just now,
so, i think i did pretty decent.
not good, but decent.
obviously, i made a few bad moves.
but thats the whole point of practicing isnt it?
to improve on the wrongs and work towards
the rights.
well, anywayz
after training, this 'guy'
came up to me and said,
"wan, you better wake up.dont make me fuck you real hard."
i was laughing when i heard this,
but politely enough, i covered my mouth with my tshirt.
well, heres some rough details about the guy:
visibally out of shape(can fit two heads in his tummy)
graduate from rp, so he's been playing fb longer than me.
and he thinks he the al-mighty on court...
well..
okay..
now ill get back to the comment he passed on to me.
disregarding the homosexual nature of the comment...
i feel that maybe what he said may be true...
i do need to improve my game...
but oh my gawd...
couldnt it be placed in a more polite and friendly term?
atleast without the vaulgarities damnit!!!
and like, he wasnt to great to say the least...

so, thats past...
hmmm...
i was chatting with fitri online...
we were kinda discussing about another guy...
rough details:
rp student
living in the north side of singapore.
well, we were kinda discussing about
how much of a asshole he is...
im not gonna go in details on what he
did to me or fitri.
but ill just say that you guys wouldnt be
to happy with it.

hmm...
i guess...
in life,
how you see people
is largely based on
their characther and actions...
and when things
dont really shape up for the best...
all you gotta do is move along...

well...
thats long enough...
nights...

my heart...

'i am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone'

so, its about 4 in the morning.
its 'valentines day' today...
hmmmm...
a lonely valentine it is
for me i guess...
its kinda funny what
i feel nowadays...
like...
i think im over things...
but i cant help
but feel i have lost something
really really BIG...
like...
OOOOOMYGAWD!!!
im probably talking nonsense now...
i cant really type out how i feel
or what im feeling...
or can i?
oh well...



anywayz...
enuf emo-ing....
heres something new...
came across this new band
PARAMORE is the name...
pop/punk/alternative music...
as good as it gets i can say...
but most importantly...
their lead singer
is like damn hawt!!!
like for-shizzle...




Birth Name:Hayley Nichole Williams
Nickname:Spongebob, Sponge, Hayles
Age:19
Birthday:December 27, 1988
Birth Sign:Capricorn
Height:5'2EyesGreen
Hometown:Franklin, Tennessee
Birth Place:Meridian, Mississippi

haha...
i think im sooooo
in love...
judging by physical things
like,
the way she looks and all...
i would say she sums up my dream girl...
simple hair...
tshirt and a pair of jeans...
and sneakers...
like...
simple yet ouh so beautiful...
hmmmm...
where are you mrs.hazwan
hahaha...
mamposss...
okay...
thats all...
gd night...
time to dream about Hayley Nichole Williams...
haha