be my bubble girl...

yeap...
pol-ite is over...
rp is champion of the tournament
not toooooo overjoyed...
but quite cool to have a shiny
new GOLD medal added to my
not too impressive collection...

anywayz...
rp students are having a 1 week break...
kind of redundant for me as ive got
my time packed to the brim...
with pp and outings...
its gonna be one fast week...

yesterday would be quite
a memorial day in the future...
finally found time to
drag myself down to the SSDC
and sign myself up for a
BTT test dat...
yuuuuuuuuurp!!!
im on my way to get my license...
porbably still a long way..
but im quite positive i can do it.

'ouh and yes, you can
always be my bubble girl...'

so negative...

i dont really know why.
but for the whole of today, i just felt
very negative.
nothing could make the difference.
nothing?
well...
beyond the point,
i just felt damn down.
i could not smile much
cos i jus couldnt see the
rationale behind it.
i was kinda gloomy.
kinda sad.
kinda irritated
kinda mad.

well,
it just sucks to be soo down.
the fact the ure feeling negative
already undelines its not gonna be fun.
but, oh well.

p.s. so fine. ouh soo fine.

steps to glory...

yessa...
div 2 is finally over...
and guess what?
champions again kappa?
haha...
2 seasons straight...
not too shabby aye?
considering i was aiming
for mid table at the start...
good job guys...
good job...





yurp...
champions baby...
div 1 next season...

so...
thats that...
pol-ite season is on now...
started in wednesday...
played against nyp...
got off to a winning start
with a 5-2 scoreline...
next match is today against sp...
COME ON!!!

still in love...

love...
for some time ive pondered...
do i still?
just about hours ago,
ive concluded i still am.
im still in love.
with football that is...
soccer.
bolasepak.
足球
fútbol
calcio
futebol
whatever you call it, i still
love it unconditionally.
im saying this because, i was thinking to myself
about a week back.
i was reading a match report on ESPNsoccernet
regarding the MANu vs liverpool match.
for those of you who were living under a rock
for the past month, MANu lost.
i was feeling very lost.
part of me wants to feel sad knowing my favourite
football club had just lost to their
fiercest rivals.
part of me just couldnt be bothered since
football just seemed soooo yesterday.
so, i was left pondering.
until last night.

it was called the clash of the titans.
MANU vs chelsea.
i was watching from one of the tables
at the familiar coffeeshop near my house.
and it was then i got my answer.
my hard raced everytime lampard took a corner.
i sighed everytime ferdinand cleared the ball.
i grew furious at how helpless van der sar is becoming
at corner kicks.
yet he became my hero when he saved a shot from joe cole.
it was like i fell in love when ronaldo came on.
but a break up when kalou scored the equaliser.
though the match ended a draw, i was quite happy.
football is not just a game.
it is the game.
floorball aside ofcourse.
within 90 minutes, i went through an emotional
roler coaster enough to last a lifetime.
and now i understand why im soo in love with it.
just like alex ferguson once said,
'football, bloddy hell.'



anywayz...
heres some floorball updates...
my team is 2nd in the league with one match left.
a convincing win next weekend
will put us in pole position for promotion
to division one next year.
in other news, pol-ite
is in 2 weeks time.
hmmm...

nites yo...
:)

nike run-ed

well, this is kinda late
but, yah...
i ran the nike human race...


yup...
im quite proud with my timing...
not too bad for the guy
who was from taf-club
:X

polite is coming...
maybe this time?
well see..

Why this way?

I cant help it.
Anytime.
Anywhere.
it kinda swirls in my mind allot.
making its effect felt everytime it comes around.
A mixture of estacy and pain,
served like a chilled emotional cocktail.
All i really want. . .
:s

Blogging from my phone. . .

As you might have guessed it from reading my title, i typing this entry from my handphone. Dont ask me why. Im just bored and i cant sleep (its 2 in the morning by the way).

okay, you can say im being emo or whatever, but i find it hard to be to upbeat nowadays. Sure there are times i break into a smile. But, i just feel so incomplete these days. And being alone or being swarmed with friends doesnt help me to much. Hmm. . .i wonder. . .

thats it for my first phone post. Nites. . .

moment like this...

well, first thing i can tell you is,
my moments nowadays arent as good as
kelly clarkson's.
i dont feel like ive won the american idol.
i dont feel like im singing infront
of a sold out crowd.
i dont feel like im a million bucks.
i just feel damn low nowadays.
floorball wise, i dunno...
its either im losing form,
or im just not good enough.
had a bad game during the weekend.
and a worst training last night.
i dunno.
maybe...
just maybe...

and nowadays,
it sucks to receive an sms.
like, its always the same old people...
floorball guys, family.
no one special ever drops a 'hello' msg.
like, im always hoping its something nice
to read when i get the message.
but it always ends up being, 'coming training'
or something like that.

ahhh...
that it...
im going to sleep...
gd night...

sunday morning rain is pouring...

the holidays are here...
spent the first 3 days in camp...
it was okay...
not tooo shaaabby aye...

erm...
the weekends are over...
its monday morning now...
went for skools training on saturday morning
before going out with my parents in the evening...

as you might know
or guessed by reading the post title,
it was raining allot on sunday morning...
this really affected my plans for the day...
luckily the rain was not bad enough for me to call
my plans off...
u see,
the last time i went cycling to east coast,
i realised that there was a route that
linked east coast to many of the
parks in the eastern area of singapore.
the route would go as such:
ECP -> Changi Beach -> Pasir Ris Park -> Tampines park -> Bedok Resivoir -> ECP
so today,
i decided to cycle down the route
and explore all it had to offer.
for my first time,
i have to say i did quite
well finding my way through.
some of the connecting routes
were not soo easy to find
but i was able to manage.
the sights were very interesting at times.
once, i was afraid i was lost.
and suddenly i was
the old Changi Hospital building.
i kinda freaked out a little
cos i imagined myself in a
'blair witch project' situation...
haha...
but it was all okay...
unfortunately, i din think about taking pictures
until the route was reaching its end.

so, there goes another week.
olympics is at its best lately.
micheal phelps made history by being becoming
the best olympian when he won his 8th medal for the games.
and singapore won silver on the table tennis group events!
come on team singapore!!!
haha...

mkay...
my whole body is aching from all the cycling...
so, gdnight :)

current addiction...

just a list of things i found myself
caught up with recently...

*dance music

*counter strike

*carrom

*E1 chicken rice

and...

**you. still.

:S

ah, la peaceful melody...

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours...








my whole world could be in a wreck,
but you're brief presence brings calm and serenity.
=)

to you...

do notice im gone?
where did run to?
so far away...
i want you to know that
i miss you, i miss you sooo...

im still kinda sad.
the feeling comes and goes.
it just lingers in my mind.
hmph...

sad-ed...

well...
its about 1 in the morning...
i cant sleep...
hmmm...
have you ever felt
way deep inside ur body,
in that body part that doesnt exists,
something is missing?
you cant really put a finger on it
cos in real life,
its not really there...
well
yah, im kinda feeling that way right now...
i just fell like today,
something is just missing.
something just doesnt feel right.
something just feels unaccomplished...

i feel so down right about now.
been so since i was in school earlier.
im just,
really,
badly,
unfortunately,
sad.
its not emo.
its not 'attention seeking'.
its not 'typical'.
im just sad.
yes, sad. sad. sad. sad. sad!
there is no possible other way of putting it.
plain. simple.
sad.
period.
=(

procrastinator...

hello there...
well...
probably reading the title would have
hinted that ive been putting off this post
for some time...
its not that i dont have the time...
i just, dont want to do it...

hmmm...
another thing ive been procrstinating so far
is my PP report...
i distinctively remember telling myself
i was gonna get started on sunday night...
its tuesday now and im still not even close
to starting...
oh well...

anyway...
life has been sort of happenning for me...
been attending soooo many outings and such...
soo...
here goes...

two weeks back, me and
some of the floorball went out to have dinner
at sakura.
sort of a farewell dinner for the mates
who were going to serve the nation...





after the dinner,
we went out and sat around outside
ngee ann city plaza...
well...
thanks to fit and his new Iphone,
we got ourselves carried away
in a more extreme game of
truth or dare...
erm...
pictures and vidoes, too explicit i guess...
haha...

the next day,
had my first league game.
we won.
1-0.
i felt i had a good game.
and it feel soo much
different winning
when you played a role in getting the win.
picture for the day?

haha...
pardon his smile.
he on cloud nine for reason apperant in his hands...
literally.

last firday,
my sister finally graduated from university.
no more mugging for her.
BIG UPS TO YOU SIS!
well,
i guess its something to be happy and proud about...
maybe something to aim for?
again...
here are some photos...







zomg!!!
check out the baby!!!
haha...
sooooooooo cute!!!

so,
finally.
had my second league game on sunday.
we won 5-3.
hmmm...
not too happy overall.
i think i should have been better.
hmmm...
photo of the day?

haha...
cool or what???



well...
thats long enough...
bbye...

*kau buat aku tersenyum*

fried rice on cloud nine...

well, was watching the euro08 final this morning
Spain won.
but anywayz...you can read more about the match at
www.espnsoccernet.com
sooo...
since i was already up so late into the night...
i decided to cook myself something to bring to school today...
explaining the unexplainable dish in the picture...
well, to say the least, it fried rice...
yurp...
rice fried with different ingredients...
i think i cam out quite well...
compared to my tasteless past attempts,
this one was kinda satisfying...
considering i am no chef wan,
im quite proud of myself...
haha...








things may change, but you could be the only constant i need...

wassup wit that?

'so that's the line up for today.
wan, you will be resting for this week...'

last year, every Sunday, for about
three months, those were the words
that beat my ear drums ever so loudly.
after which, the fact that i would play
no part for my team during the game would
slowly yet surely sink in.

not good enough?
not fast enough?
not strong enough?
not big enough?

the same cold feeling went through me last night.
with set dripping from my face onto the
artificial turf i was standing on,
i realized i was being left aside.
left to finish my remaining 2 rounds.
left to lead the cooling down execises.
left to watch from the outside
left to ponder...
as in my mind, the words sank in again...
'wan, you'll be resting...'

and the game goes on...

its been god knows how long since i
last posted...
i wish i had a chip in my brain that
uploads all my thoughts online...
would be dandy aye?
haha...
imagine how embarrassing it would be,
having people read about my bedtime dreams
and all about the girls i think about...
haha...

anywayz...
life has been great...
erm...
aloooooooooooooooot of things happened since i last posted...
so,
im not gonna go into tooo many details...

well,
the floorball league is gonna be
starting soon.
and, as rumoured for some time,
im the captain for the team.
abit mixed on feelings i should say.
obviously i am proud that people
see me fit to lead a team.
but, am i what they are looking for?
David beckham was a captain.
and he scored the equalising goal against greece,
when england were 2-1 down, and sent
england to the 2002 world cup.
mike eruzione was the captain of the
1980 usa ice hockey team.
he scored the winning goal against the more
favoured soviet union team in the olympics
semi-finals.
USA later went on to win the gold medal
seriously, i dont know how or why
i was defined to be a captain.
but, the game goes on no matter what.
and hopefully, ill step up
when my defining moment comes.
*fingers crossed*



soooo...
thats all i guess...
selamat
:)

things that make me better...

days havent really gone the best for me...
been having some 'emo' nights for some reason
floorball got banned...
soo...
not much trainings...
but im still darn busy for some reason...
its 2 in the morning...
i have school tomorrow...
yet im still awake...
sooo,
like ive said...
there are times when i feel off
and that's when its nice
to have a sweet relief...
thus...




things that make me better

-scoring a goal
-MAN U scoring a goal
-winning
-MAN u winning
-playing floorball
-playing football
-having a nice meal
-getting an 'A' for class
-spending good times with my family
-playing with with my cousins baby nephew
-FIFA 08
-music
-a good sleep
-relaxing with my friends
-getting money
-good weather
-my room
-getting new stuff
-finishing my work
-losing weight












and...














-...











(hint:its soupose to be A she. but im not sure which one?)

the hate list

its the third week of school...
its thursday and theres training after school...
i feel upbeat today...
probably cos i finally got to play
soccer yesterday after training...
its was sooo totally kewl!!!
haha...

anywayz...
i think life is seriouly getting harder...
i find people getting on my nerves
more and more nowadays...
its sort of a worrying trend cos
more and more i find myself
cursing the worst for people...
more and more do i find deadly thoughts
filling up my innocent little mind...
okay...
maybe its not soo innocent after all...
so...
due to this new trend of 'hating on impulse',
ive sort of created and imaginary list of names
which includes all the names
of the people i hate at that point of time...
and belive me,
the list can get kinda long at times...
but,
being the ever forgiving person i am
with a simple smile or hand shake,
i take certain names off the list...
sooo...
at the end of the day,
only a few names are left on the list...
now...
this few peopl are the ones...
erm...
i wanna 'talk' to...

what a first week...

so, i was actually gonna post this last firday night...
but...
the magic of the matress was just toooooo strong...
tooooo strong...
anywayz...
its monday morning and im in school...
like duh...
got about 2-3 hours of sleep last night...
way not enough...
the first week of school was wokay i guess...
there wasnt any major happenings...
met new people...
got into new classes...
typical first day...
ouh...
AND IM LIKE A YEAR 2 STUDENT NOW!!! haha...
i think its just thooo cool...
just like upper secondary or upper primary back in the days...
haha!!!

ouh shit...
im probably gonna die because of this...
but oh well...
last friday, me, yusoff and hazmi went to to queensway so the the mamat can get some new pair of shoes...
before leaving for the train, the mamat changed into his new nike shoes...
but, as we were walking, the mamat decided he looked wrong wearing the shoes and decided to switch back to sandals in the middle of the walking pavement, somewhere near the shell that is opposite of the road from ikea!!! haha amekkao!!


hahaha...
sooo, thats about it for the past week...
the weekends we kinda dull...
spent time with the family...
its called family love...
haha...
ouh! ouh! and i finally got a new backpack
baek kappa!!!
kk...
till next time...